Friday, September 29, 2006

My Bestie and Me

i mish my girlfriends....

alot of things had been happening these few days...

And everybody are feeling rather down these days..

i felt their pain cause im feeling it too...

i duno y it must happen now...y not later..?? or long before???

y must it be at this point of tyme..??

Finding true frens are hard to find...

Some would juz play u out without u knowing...

or worst still,befriend u to dig out ur secrets...

i've found a bestfriend who i truly love and cared for...

We had been bestfriend for about 3 years..

We used to be very closed..we hang out together..do stuff together..

But..things change..he got his own way of life now...

He doesnt care for me as much as he used to..

He wasn't rilli dere wen i need his shoulder to cry on...

i felt lost at tymes...i miss him..i love him...i rilli do...i miss our friendship..

I LOVE U CHANDAN DASS!!!!!!!!!!

Love, Riyah

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

i've learn alot of things in life...

And i dun deny Life is hard...

Thinking about the ugly side make me wana cry...

sumtime i juz thought to myself...y am i olways the victim???

i lost my love one...sumone who i thought will be mine for the rest of my life..sumone who i thought will be the best husband and father of my future kids.

Mayb i expect too much...too much that i didn't realise itz juz a fairytale story i've created...

i miss him..i duno y...Mayb im still settling down...

Had misunderstanding wit mom and im sad about it..

Love mom alot but sumtime we're juz not getting on quite well..

Both got different kinds of view...

i soo hate it wen thiz happen...

"MOm..im sorie..i love u no matter what happen..."

I duno where i stand now..Mayb this is wat itz call retribution..He cared soo much for me but i dun care..sometime i felt im being veri selfish..Wanting a new relationship is wat he long wanted but i kept saeing i aint ready for it...i juz need tyme...how long?? i duno..it may take daes..months or years...im juz confused..

Today is his b'dae..Bake for him a cake wit his first name written on it..Wanted to surprised him but im dissapointed i couldn't meet him todae to give him wat i've made for him...

DISAPPOINTED

Love, Riyah

Thursday, September 21, 2006

I soo loved watching 'Raised My Voice'.
i watched it umpteen tymes and nvr got bored watching it...
i watched it again yesterday and felt like watching it again todae..hha!!!

Hilary Duff was the lead actress..
She played the role of 'Terri'..
The only daughter in the family who loves music and wanted to performed arts academy in Los Angeles
but wasn't approved by her Dad.
Her brother and Mom was supportive about her going cause they knew she got the talent and wanted
her to get a life then getting stuck in their hometown,Flagstaff.

Unfortunately..her brother died in a car crashed..Terri was lucky tt she survived.
Broken-hearted Terri lose hope after she lost her brother,who secretly submitted her for a summer
session at a performing arts academy in Los Angeles.

Terri got selected to go to the arts academy but didn't want to go at first.
Her mom and Aunt Nina consoled her and helped Terri to get away from her Dad saying Terri will be staying
with Aunt Nina in another state for a month.

Terri went to LA at last.She experiences a whole new way of life in the big city,far from the small town lifestyle's she used to.
She enjoyed staying there and attending the school programs.
The film revolved around her efforts to comfort her lack of formal classic training and deal with a romantic entanglement.

Love, Riyah

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Watched my favourite chinese drama as usual and i caught a phrase which i think it's true...

"When a girl is hurt emotionally,dey tend to lose confidence in themselves while guys dey will
juz keep on trying and moving on"

To come to think about it, i totally agreed with that phrase..
Mayb because i've experinced something alike..
ERGHK!! FLASHBACK!!!

It was like two months ago we broke off after we've been together for about 3 years..
i didnt cry cause i saw itz coming...
i duno who to blame..
Mayb we're lack of communication but i dun tink ttz not the main problem..
He's wit another girlfriend after we broke off for about only 3 days..i mean wat the heck!!
Wat do i mean to him for the last 3 years..JERK!!
I haven even settled down at that point of tyme and im still trying to absorbed slowly watever happened...
i wasn't even ready to hear it... but thx to Den...He make me cry..Den told me he saw him and her..holding hands..
and Den sound delighted wen he told me wat he saw..

Den said " i expected u to say a SOLID OK and not cry"

i was like..HELO!!! u expected me to sae a SOLID OK wen i haven even recover...SELFISH FREAK!!!

Told my mom about the break up thingy and she sae
"He's playing around the bush..y not say straight forward he wana be wit sumone else"

hha!! guess he dun wan me to have a bad impression on him..well..i olready have!!
i still remembered he msg me a few weeks after wat happened..and he denied he's in another relationship..

i asked "so how r u and her??"

he said" huh? where got?? No la..we're juz friends"

i said " ohh!! 'friends'..so r u saying my friends are blind and couldn't see wat happen??
They saw u and her orite"

he said " ala..."

Wat is he trying to tell me...and wats wit that "ala..."

Well..Im moving on perfectly fine rite now...im very happy t0 mit many beautiful people and girlfriends who is olways dere for me..

'once bitten twice shy'...dere will be no turning back..

Love, Riyah

Saturday, September 16, 2006

Life had been quite stressful with prelims going on..
Alot of things to think about and tiny miny problems rising..
haix!!!
But what rilli bothers me most is the tyme left to 'O' level.
I duno whether i have enuff tyme to study all my subjects.
The thougth of giving up ever come acr0ss my mind..

( "RIYAH!!! STOP TALKING ABOUT GIVING UP!! DUN BE A LOSER!!!")

ok ok..im not giving up yet..im still taking my exams..PFFT!!!!

I realised i fear too much in life..i fear to make choices..i fear to take risk while life
is about making choices and taking risk..
Guess i gota do sumthing about it or im gona get lost sumwhere sumplace..and GOD noes where..

hmm...Mayb by encouraging myself will help abit...Yeah...hahax!! kk..lets try...

WAY TO GO RIYAH!!!! U CAN DO IT!! BELIEVE IN URSELF!!! WOOHOO!!!! REMEMBER,IF U QUIT U'R A LOSER..C'MON ON!!!!!
ACHIEVE UR DREAMS!!! COMPETE WIT THE REST!!!! WOOHOO!!! U GO GIRL!!!

hahax!! felt much betta.. ok..the spirit to study is dere now..guess i gota shut my comp and study my geography... BYE Maite!!! hahahx!!!

Love, Riyah

Friday, September 15, 2006

ok...i duno y bt im angry
angry with myself for being gullible..
i so hate myself...

ok ok..lets tink positive...
let's take watever happen as an experinced(wat an experience)...

i still remember on the 9th of August i mit him..
itz only for 5-10 minutes..bt i still think itz worthwhile...
My first impression on him was..not bad,kinda a nice guy..hopefully...
We met again on 11 August 2006...it was rilli unexpected cause both of us were
rilli bored at home so thought we could meet up and watched fireworks together..
While on the train,i was rilli thinking hard whether im goin out again with him is for real
or im juz dreaming...Den i saw him,waiting for me at Ct Hall..i was like..Woow!!!
hahaxx!!
And i guess i made his day on tt dae by TALKING CRAP!!! hahax!! im so lame!
i olso saw his friends like Ana,Wan,Lolok,Mael and the rest..cool friends i can sae..
Watever it is i rili had a great tyme on tt day watching the beautiful fireworks with him..

14 August 2006
Itz on Monday..the day i skip school..hehe..i went tampines wit Stella to accompany her meet Baba..
Baba brought along his friend,Izat, he's ok..nice guy bt i wasn't interested at all cause i was thinkin about him..
hahax!! (seriously i duno y..) Izat asked for my no. and i was half-hearted to give my no. but i duno how to avoid...HELP!!!hahax!!
k..Lets get back to him..we meet up at last..brought me to tiz so called garden in tampines mall i guess..and we chat for about 2 hrs dere...phew!!
But i wasn't bored at all and i dun tink so he felt bored either..itz like we got alot of things to talked about..
Den it was tyme for me to go home..i still remember(i duno how it happened) our fingers got locked and he said 'When can i meet u again seh?' hahax!! (emotional scene 1)
Oh ya!! i saw YATI!!! hahax!! (he's ex gf)..

15 AUgust 2006
Meet him again the next day and i was kinda touched cause he willing to meet me after his soccer training and i skipped my nite class juz to go to Ct hall to meet him..
i was rilli looking forward to it..hahax!!
We went to the roof garden in expalnade and again we got alot of things to talked about..
ok..Tiz part i was rilli emotional (emotinal scene 2) hahax!!
i was rilli having so much fun with him tt i cried wen it was tyme for us to go home...sob2..

17 August 2006
The same thing happen like 15 August 2006..bt thiz tyme i was rilli touched he sent me back home..
In the train we took sum pics together...i was rilli embarrased caused deres alot of people in the train..hahax!!
Tiz tyme the separation wasn't tt bad..hehe

22 August 2206
I went to tampines to meet my cuzins dere wit my Ninie...i olso took the opportunity to meet him(cause we didnt meet for about a week and i missed him alot..hahax!)
i went to eat wit ninie and my cuzins at New York Pizza den meet him at Starbucks...
Imran and Mael was olso dere..and dey're rilli funny..hahax!!!

27 August 2006
Tiz tyme he came down to woodlands..i was rilli happy to see him..
We went popular to look for my social studies book then we went Northpoint...
But sum unexpected things happened and guess he was disappointed..
i still remember i cried when i was walking towards the bus..haix!! (emotional scene 3)

2 September 2006
Itz the last i meet him..It was unexpected i went to my uncle's place which is next to Springfield Sec..
So he suggested we meet up...My heart was really beating very fast like ROCKET!!..hahax!!!
It was a short meeting and i felt kinda awkward bt it was ok overall (no emotinal scene caught)

To people who is involved expecially Yati..im sorie..
And helo!! im not a bitch u thought i was and i didn't snatched him away from u..mind u..
Noe wat happen den judge Girl...
Think and act maturely then u can get over it...

To him:

Thank u for being my friend..
This friendship will i olways treasure and rilli appreciated..
Thnks for giving me the opportunity to noe u...

Thank u my friend...

Love, Riyah

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

So..tiz is whatt people kept talking about..BLOGSPOT...
ok..now i have one...hahax!!!

Well..wat can i sae...
hmm....
mayb i'll start talking about my dae todae...

i woke up at 6.50 and was rilli shocked cause i thought it was 4.30...
i set the alarmed at 4.30 so that i can wake up early and continue study
but..too bad!! i didnt hear Ni-nie's hp rings..haix!!

Went to skul wit Ni-nie wit notes in my hands bt i didnt managed to read a single thing...
haix!!! But i managed to read sumthing in the parade square..YEAH!!!!

Have my paper 1 and 3 science papers and it sux..cause i didnt really study in depth..
if i were to study earlier(and not the dae b4) mayb i could answer 50%-60% of the paper..
I went back wit Stella after i finished doin my science papers..accompany her go get change and off she went!!! to mit BaBa...
i went back home,on the comp and suzy suggest i should have a blog on my own... hahax!!

Hopefully what i wrote is a good start cause this is my first tyme bloggin and im still confused on how to use this blogger...hahaX!!

Love, Riyah