Monday, October 30, 2006

Itz had been like a week olready...
The conflict we juz had wasn't good at all...
mayb i misundrestood u..
mayb im being too sensitive..i duno..

i made the first move and apologise but u didn't seem to care...
u replied a few daes later and again i apologise..
u said wat past is past and wat matter most is we dun misunderstood one another anymore...

i saw u todae..wit ur frens..
u didn't even look at me...

i've been thingking alot about it and i afraid to confess sumthing that i was rilli sure either...
i think i've fallen for u...
im afraid to lose u...

ERGHKK!!! i duno...
i dun wana play around wit ur feelings but i myself do not noe if i rilli have fallen for u...

Mayb i need more tyme to convince myself that wat i rilli feel towards u is true..
i guess oni tyme will tell everything...

Love, Riyah

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

First Day of HAri Rayer is what i have been looking for...
My family and i wore all white...so pure gitu..hahax!!!!

Went to my Nyai's(Dad's mom) place first...
Nyai cooked alot of food like Sambal Goreng,Fried Chicken,Sambal Sotong,Lodeh and many more...
My maid helped to cook Chicken Rendang...
Everything look soo tempting that i ate till im dead full...hahax!!
i meet all my cute little cuzins(since im the oldest grandchild in my dad's side) and we were very happy to see one another.. love them soo much!!

We went to nenek's(Mom's Moma) place after that...
I have alot of uncles and aunties (4 uncles and 6 aunties)...
So..i have alot of cuzins..i can click wit most of them...
but sum seems to be in a world of their own so i can't be bothered..
tooK pics wit the small cuzins and dey're real cute expecially Muhammad and sisters...hahax!!!

After nenek's place we went to a few more houses and went back...
i was rilli exhausted...but still i had soo much fun..hehe

To all Muslims...
SLAMAT HARI RAYER!!!!!!

Love, Riyah

Saturday, October 21, 2006

im angry..im really really angy..
i thought u would understand the situation im in..
My O level cuming and i need alot of tyme studying and u expect me to call and msg u all the tyme..WTF!!!
And now u said im always blaming u for not being understanding....
YESH!! u're not understanding..Dun tell me wat i should do or i should not cause u're not my boyfriend..U're juz a friend...Get it!!
i dun even need a bf at thiz period point of tyme...

Sumtime i feel that u're trying to imitate my ex bf..
Plz dun cause i can't love u like how i used to love my ex bf..
Not oni that..u will only make me recall him...

im not being sensitive ok!! im juz tired of all thiz..Give me a break!!!

Love, Riyah

Went Geylang yesterday with Nurul,Hezam,Hafeez,Amsyar and Nini..

Dere should be 10 of us goin but Fad got pissed off we were late and went back...Sachok olso followed him back..

Fairuz i duno where he is...lost in outer space i tink..

Shanaz couldn't follow cause her grandma passed away..

Shanaz im sorie for ur lost..

wish u my deepest condolence..

Geylang was rilli crowded and all of us sweat like hell..

it wasn't fun at all..we oni got ourself tired and frustrated..

there wasn't much food like last year...

Dere are more clothing and home decor stuff..

Watz more we missed the last train..Damn!!!

but luckily my parents were still in Geylang..so they fetched me and nine..

Nurul olso tag along wit us and we sent her home..

The boys took bus home..

Amsyar didnt talk much..he wasn't like thiz before..mayb he's embarrased that nini was dere cause he still got a crushed on her...(aww!!! SWEETNESS..hha!!)

Hezam was better...At least he talked more then Amsyar..

Hafeez..he's crazy but abit too sensitive..hha!!!

Hey guys..itz been like 2 years since we know each other..

Hopefully tiz friendship remains...

love and miss u guyz lotz...

Love, Riyah

Saturday, October 14, 2006

im kinda worry that im left with about 2 weeks to 'O' level.I felt butterflies in my stomach already.

i knew that 'O' level isn't gona be as easy as 'N' level. I actually started revising olready like last month or so.But still,i need a longer tyme to know everything in depth.Not only that,i have my art paper 2 complete and the topics given is so0 damn hard to understand and visualise.

k im not complaning actually cause its my fault for not preparing earlier.But i can't cope with soo many things to do and complete everything in two weeks tyme.

Looking around and and seeing that i got alot of competitors to compete kinda demoralise me.

Well,guess i cannot give up now.Hopefully theres still hope..NONONO..Theres hope, yup2 that sounds better..hha!!

The second thing that im worried most is about a friend of mine who i rili care for.

She had been spending kinda alot of tyme wit her boyfriend and i duno whether she has start revising.

i wana see her graduate wit me to either Poly or even better JC (which is not possible for me).

i dun deny i felt neglected most of the tyme.Mayb tiz is my retribution.I used to spent alot of tyme wit my Ex-boyfriend and i paid less attention to her.Now i noe how she really felt at that point of tyme.

Love, Riyah

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

i've moved on in life,
trying not to remember the past
and the pain i once felt,
Im forgetting you bit by bit,
And finally i did it with the help of my beautiful friends.

Saying u missing me after u left me for quite sumtime doesn't make things right.
I dun wana be the problem in ur new relationship.
Let me be the only who felt the pain when i lost u in her hands.
Aniway whats the point saying you can't forget me and had been missing me badly when you are the one who choose to be wit her.
You choose to move on which means you have already forgotten me.

I dun deny i do miss u too.
Going to places that we've both ever been before and doing things we ever done before does reminds me of you.
You left me with soo much memories.
But sometimes, i have to put things to an end.
No point giving it another chance again cause i know another break-up gona occur sooner or later.

Aniway,this month is suppose to be our 3 years anniversary.
Supposing if im still wit you,i would have been busy collecting my money to get you the most sweetest and memorable gift ever.

Man,forget me...
Move on and don't turn back...
Dun ever think of me again..
Leave me alone cause i can't bear to remember the past and felt hurt again..
I wish u all the best..

Love, Riyah