Friday, November 24, 2006
Suzy's now gone.
Left me and Katie.
Never felt soo empty before.
I couldn't afford to cry or stare into space thinking about them(Jarir,Suzy & ShiMin)all the tyme,
i have to be strong to be dere for Katie.
I dun wana make things worst.
I've been thinking alot to make Katie feel occupied,hopefully it helps.
Things hadn't been good these days.
Conflicts and misunderstanding pilling up.
I have alot of reasons for boiling up,
i can't stand it any longer.
I did tried to show u're my friend by asking u out(gigs,slacking and whatever not),
but ur answer will olwayz be the same "him".
It keeps happening again and again,i bet if u were me u got frustrated.
But i didn't show i was really frustrated or pissed.. why??
Firstly,i bet this is my retribution for spending alot of tyme with my ex-bf when i used to be with him.
Secondly,i wan u to be happy.Happy with "him" cause i believe he can make you happy and no one else including me.
Thirdly , i want you to be love by sumone,a Guy.
so it doesn't make sense at all when u said i wan u to have a fate like mine. pfft!!
True i dun like him..lets be direct..i hate him..
I hate him for controllin you.
I hate him for making you feel that you're the most important to him and not to other people.
i hate him for asking u to scold me.scold me?? wat the hell!!
but u seems to like it that way..being controlled and followed watever thing he said.
You even asked me to lie to him to make him feel better.
now i realised.. the power of love..soo strong that u only could think inside the box.
You said i didnt show i care..how im i suppose to show wen u are olways not dere with me.
i still remembered i ever asked you out a few tymes but u said u cannot go out,fine..
but i juz dun get it u noe,if tiz for "him", u always can make it..u answer this..IS IT FAIR????
You said i pretend,if i sae im sincered being ur friend all this while you'll say its bullshit.so,watever..
LOOK! I NEED YOUR ATTENTION!!!!!!
Left me and Katie.
Never felt soo empty before.
I couldn't afford to cry or stare into space thinking about them(Jarir,Suzy & ShiMin)all the tyme,
i have to be strong to be dere for Katie.
I dun wana make things worst.
I've been thinking alot to make Katie feel occupied,hopefully it helps.
Things hadn't been good these days.
Conflicts and misunderstanding pilling up.
I have alot of reasons for boiling up,
i can't stand it any longer.
I did tried to show u're my friend by asking u out(gigs,slacking and whatever not),
but ur answer will olwayz be the same "him".
It keeps happening again and again,i bet if u were me u got frustrated.
But i didn't show i was really frustrated or pissed.. why??
Firstly,i bet this is my retribution for spending alot of tyme with my ex-bf when i used to be with him.
Secondly,i wan u to be happy.Happy with "him" cause i believe he can make you happy and no one else including me.
Thirdly , i want you to be love by sumone,a Guy.
so it doesn't make sense at all when u said i wan u to have a fate like mine. pfft!!
True i dun like him..lets be direct..i hate him..
I hate him for controllin you.
I hate him for making you feel that you're the most important to him and not to other people.
i hate him for asking u to scold me.scold me?? wat the hell!!
but u seems to like it that way..being controlled and followed watever thing he said.
You even asked me to lie to him to make him feel better.
now i realised.. the power of love..soo strong that u only could think inside the box.
You said i didnt show i care..how im i suppose to show wen u are olways not dere with me.
i still remembered i ever asked you out a few tymes but u said u cannot go out,fine..
but i juz dun get it u noe,if tiz for "him", u always can make it..u answer this..IS IT FAIR????
You said i pretend,if i sae im sincered being ur friend all this while you'll say its bullshit.so,watever..
LOOK! I NEED YOUR ATTENTION!!!!!!
Love, Riyah
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Went to Changi airport this morning to send Jarir off.
Met Katie under my block at 5 in the morning.
Before that Katie called me at 3.45 to wake me up but i continued sleeping after i hang up the phone thinking i will be able to wake at 4..but i didn't..Taufiq called me at 4 which really surprised me..*swit of you*
i took a quick bath and got myself ready..
Katie and i met Jarir under his block before we proceed to Changi Airport.
Jarir looked really smart today with his smart pants,shoes and long sleeve blouse(i tink)..Katie said he looked like a football player that is leaving for another country to have a match dere..hahax!
Met Ameerul,Zafri,Farhan,Din,Zul,Azran and Hasif i tink in the changi airport.They stayed up in the Changi Airport yesterday juz to send Jarir off today..
There were sum laughter here and dere before Jarir had to go in..Olmost everyone cried including Jarir.
My heart sank to see him leave.A friend who i used to care for soo much is leaving.Althought he will come back every year..but his absent for about a year make all of us felt really empty.A lively boy/man-to-be went to another country for a long period of tyme is unbearable.i soo gona miss him.. *sob sob*
Katie gave him a hug before he went and Jarir gave her a kiss on her cheek ignoring the crowd.Now i knoe how both of them meant to each other *sob sob*
Goin Changi Airport again tomorrow to send Suzy off..haix!! i soo gona mish her..ALOT
Love, Riyah
Monday, November 20, 2006
Had my last paper yesterday (science MCQ)..
I felt satisfied cause what i studied came out...*YEESH UH*
WEnt Sengkang yesterday..cause i and nini got really bored after watching 2 DVDs (Buli Balik & Chicken Little)..
Mit our dearest cuzins wit amsyar,hafeez,fadzil,hezam and Syukri..
We went to eat at BANQUET..Coincidently,we saw Busu and family..he was surprised to see us..i mean Sembawang to Sengkang,kinda far u see..Cik ana said Busu kinda worried about us leaving Sengkang at 10.30..hahaX!!
After eating we went Starbuck to chill dere..It was rilli cold cause it was drizzling..we drink and chat about the next outing we're goin after my CLT course..oh ya!! we bought ibu a small cake to celebrate exactly at 12..hahax!! the name of the cake is CHOCOLATE OBSESSION!!!! itz filled with chocolate and i so loved it..hahax!!
Our planned about surprising ibu at 12 turn out good..Ibu was half-asleep wen we entered her room..From her face i can see she was really happy and surprised...hahax!!
Ibu opened her present after blowing her cake..the high-heel shoes we bought for her fit her perfectly..it look so gorgeous on her feet..
Today we gona celebrate again..ibu is gona get pizzaS for the whole family and we goin to have another cake..thiz tyme a big cake..hahax!!! i'll update again later ok..gota go to NCC HQ to get sum stuff..haix!!
Love, Riyah
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Went to vivocity wit my sengkang peeps again to get ibu's bithday present..
Bought two high-heel shoes for ibu and the shoe is seriously gorgeous...i soo love it..hahax!
hopefully ibu likes it...
i had soo much fun being wit nurul,fad,amsyar,hafeez,sassya and nini...
sassya really enjoyed herself cause of the playground and the water thingy...
got herself all wet then complain she's cold..*haiya*
Love, Riyah
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Got to know something unexpected and was shocked to know about it.
The next thing I knew, I was crying. I duno know why I cried and why it hurt soo badly.
Sometime I feel God is very unfair towards me. Im the black sheep in the family and I’m beginning to accept it. But the least he could give me is someone that can love me for who I am and is true towards me.
Got to know you got yourself drunk and whatever happen after that is unacceptable. You were not suppose to drink in the first place so don’t say you were drunk and were clueless for whatever happen as an excuse.
You acted like nothing happen infront of me and I duno know what were you really thinking by doing that. The truth gona surface sooner or later. Well it already did. You still got the guts to keep it from me. Face it la..it already happened. There’s no time machine to turn back the time. Maybe its human nature not to admit their mistake and face the consequences.
The next thing I knew, I was crying. I duno know why I cried and why it hurt soo badly.
Sometime I feel God is very unfair towards me. Im the black sheep in the family and I’m beginning to accept it. But the least he could give me is someone that can love me for who I am and is true towards me.
Got to know you got yourself drunk and whatever happen after that is unacceptable. You were not suppose to drink in the first place so don’t say you were drunk and were clueless for whatever happen as an excuse.
You acted like nothing happen infront of me and I duno know what were you really thinking by doing that. The truth gona surface sooner or later. Well it already did. You still got the guts to keep it from me. Face it la..it already happened. There’s no time machine to turn back the time. Maybe its human nature not to admit their mistake and face the consequences.
Love, Riyah
i'll like to thank my girlfriends for being there for me.
i can't image life without u guys.Alot of things had been happening and im rilli at the lost end.
u guyz brighten up my days and make me feel occupied.i rilli love u guyz and im saying this from the bottom of my heart.
To suzy: Saying u're leaving to Australia and most probably wouldn't be back is a huge blow for me.You r olways dere comforting and advicing me.please stay Suzy,apis needs you..i need you..ur girlfriends need you..everybody need you..if u have a choice please stay here with us.i love you and gona miss you.
To Shimin: You will be leaving to Hong Kong the next day after our science paper.Although you will be coming back but to me a week is a kinda a long time. Watever it is i'll pray for ur safety.take good care of urself.i love you and gona miss you.
To Jarir: u're leaving in a week tyme to study abroad. Although we're not that close right now,i will still gona miss you.You tried to matchmake me and Sharul 2 years back and i haven thanked you for doing so.Sharul is a very nice guy which i didnt appreaciate him at first but now i rilli do.take care of urself went u're dere.dun forget us here expecially katie ok..
To katie : haix! left the two of us stuck here.but nvm,life move on..dun be sad about Jarir leaving ok Darla.i truly understand how you feel but lets pray for his safety ok.Having love ones in another planet that we are unsure of feels kinda insecure but lets hope for the best ok.i love you and miss you always.
To Stella: U brighten up my every single day with laughter and joy. You make me laugh and smile.You taught me wat life really means.i really appreciate it.you're a sweet little thing.Remembering u barefooted for me touches my heart.no one ever do that for me but you did it.i love you Stella,i really do.please stay by my side cause without you im gona fall.
i can't image life without u guys.Alot of things had been happening and im rilli at the lost end.
u guyz brighten up my days and make me feel occupied.i rilli love u guyz and im saying this from the bottom of my heart.
To suzy: Saying u're leaving to Australia and most probably wouldn't be back is a huge blow for me.You r olways dere comforting and advicing me.please stay Suzy,apis needs you..i need you..ur girlfriends need you..everybody need you..if u have a choice please stay here with us.i love you and gona miss you.
To Shimin: You will be leaving to Hong Kong the next day after our science paper.Although you will be coming back but to me a week is a kinda a long time. Watever it is i'll pray for ur safety.take good care of urself.i love you and gona miss you.
To Jarir: u're leaving in a week tyme to study abroad. Although we're not that close right now,i will still gona miss you.You tried to matchmake me and Sharul 2 years back and i haven thanked you for doing so.Sharul is a very nice guy which i didnt appreaciate him at first but now i rilli do.take care of urself went u're dere.dun forget us here expecially katie ok..
To katie : haix! left the two of us stuck here.but nvm,life move on..dun be sad about Jarir leaving ok Darla.i truly understand how you feel but lets pray for his safety ok.Having love ones in another planet that we are unsure of feels kinda insecure but lets hope for the best ok.i love you and miss you always.
To Stella: U brighten up my every single day with laughter and joy. You make me laugh and smile.You taught me wat life really means.i really appreciate it.you're a sweet little thing.Remembering u barefooted for me touches my heart.no one ever do that for me but you did it.i love you Stella,i really do.please stay by my side cause without you im gona fall.
Love, Riyah
well..i went bugis yesterday with my couzins and nini.
They slept over at my place so i and nini decided to bring them out jalan-jalan and olso looked for mamat's stuff that we had promise him since last year..hahax!! *sorry Mat*
i olso need to go out to take some fresh air after i found out something unexpected.
so..here how my dae went,
Mamat,Nini and i went bugis street cause mamat wana look around..he had never been dere before so i and nini lah have to be his tourguide..*aiyo*
Atiqah wasn't with us at first cause she went to vivocity with her gf and we meet her up at bugis.
Mamat found a shirt he like and a cap and boxers...so obversely he hold the most paper bags.
i bought a black t-shirt and nini bought a so-called dress..
oh ya!! i saw Man's brother!!!!!
it was rilli unexpected la...and im scared of him..hahax!!
mayb because of his well-built body i tink and the EYEBROWS..hahax!! super-thick..haha
Met hafeez after that and we proceed to explanade to chill dere..
i shouldn't have gone dere cause it reminds me of sumthing.
it must have happen sumwhere near i tink.
These people are disgustin people and im so0 disgusted.
i took some photos so as not to think about it..
so..enjoy looking!!!!!
Love, Riyah
Monday, November 13, 2006
Had an open-house yesterday for my friends and Nini's friends...
we invited our close friends and not fogetting out SENGKANG PEEPZ!!!
Katie,Shimin and Izwan are the first to come to my place..i delibrately asked them to come earlier so that they can eat as much as they want..hehe! Suzi and Dget came abit later(thx to dget that suzi was olso late bcause suzi waited for him for quite sumtime..hahax!)
the five of them started eating after dget and suzi came..they keep eating and eating and it makes me happy seeing them eat..hahax!! (obversely my tante's cooking is nice..haha!)
Syafiq and gang came next then my sengkang's peepz then nini's friends and lastly Razil and gang..hehe..
my house was really crowded and noisy but itz full with different people who have an impact in my life...
Syafiq and gang wore olmost all black cause they were from vivocity..they knew about my open house last min from dget so they came with shirt and jeans..aniway i dun mind..hehe
i was rilli happy to see my sengkang's peeps cause they lived in Sengkang lyke duh!
i mean it takes them about an hour to travel from sengkang to sembawang...sumore amsyar juz came back from skul *pity amsyar*
Razil and gang came the last.. cause they waited for SHARUL...hahax!!
Sharul is olways late..hahax! no offence Sharul...haha..
Razil came with Hadi,Apit,Fariqin and Sharul...
what surprised me the most about yesterday is Nini's group of friends and my group of friends sat together and watched 'HIKMAH'..hahax! cool rite!! i soo loved my beautiful friends!!!
(stella and Dass couldn't make it and i was disappointed..but nvm..i understand..love u Guys)
Love, Riyah
ok..i juz realised that i had not been blogging for 2 weeks..woow!!!!
o level thingy had been goin on lately so i got no tyme to blog..hehe
o level was kinda hard...geography and chemistry sux...
mayb i was too nervous that i couldn't tink...hehe
but everything's over and i dun wana tink about it..
NONO..not everything..tiz monday will be my last paper..MCQ for science and after that WOOHOO!!!!!
i got camp in like 2 weeks tyme and the camp last for 2 weeks...PHEW!
i duno how im gona handle it cause im sure that im gona get homesick.. *sob2* gona mish mom and crazy sisters the most...
Went JalanRayer with my classmates on Saturday...
had alot of fun wit sum embarassing scences...hahax!!
what a day...hahax!
my girlfriends are all nicely dress and my boy friends are all handsumly dress..hehe
Shimin looked so cute with the kebayer pendek..hahax! CUTE SHIMIN!!
Love, Riyah
