Sunday, April 27, 2008
Lately i find myself very emotional.
The slightest things can actually make me cry.
I duno whether this is due to emotional distruption,one of the period mood or it is just me.
Seriously,i can be very sensitive at times which means i am a sensitive person and i dont like it cause it make me feel so weak.
But with all the things that had been going on lately,i think crying is the best solution.
Ijil had always been there for me tolerating my mood swing.
He isnt one of the best consultation so far but being near me and trying his best to make my mood swing go away makes me feel save and love.
Ijil might be attach to Tekong and i assume he will need to stay there.
For how long..i have no idea.
Hopefully he'll be able to come back everday and let me see his chubby preety face.
Love, Riyah
2 weeks of poly life is tiring.
Endless assignments to be done and adapting to the new environment is hard.
The pressure has oldy been felt and this is just the beginning. GOSH!!
As a matter of fact,i dun like the new environment that im trying very hard to adapt with.
I miss my secondary school friends expecially FARHANNAH,AIN,JOLYN and TABITHA.
If u girls are reading this,i want u to know that i miss our sweet memories.It might be a tough year last year but it doesnt stop us from enjoying each other accompany. Thinking of you guys make me wana breakdown,i still remembered what Jeremy said after i told him "Good things will initially come to an end" but he replied "Friends forever". I miss the time we studied together,played catching together in school,playing captain ball during PE time,gossips,joke around...SHHOOOOOTTT!!!! i miss the laughter. *sob sob*
I love you girls and i felt touched to know u girls still think of me.
I promise i'll make up a day and we go out together ok? =)
Coming back to my new school,environment and friends,im still trying my very best to get use to them. Guess it takes time and effort...hheeerrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!
i feel so miserable ryte now.............................='(
Endless assignments to be done and adapting to the new environment is hard.
The pressure has oldy been felt and this is just the beginning. GOSH!!
As a matter of fact,i dun like the new environment that im trying very hard to adapt with.
I miss my secondary school friends expecially FARHANNAH,AIN,JOLYN and TABITHA.
If u girls are reading this,i want u to know that i miss our sweet memories.It might be a tough year last year but it doesnt stop us from enjoying each other accompany. Thinking of you guys make me wana breakdown,i still remembered what Jeremy said after i told him "Good things will initially come to an end" but he replied "Friends forever". I miss the time we studied together,played catching together in school,playing captain ball during PE time,gossips,joke around...SHHOOOOOTTT!!!! i miss the laughter. *sob sob*
I love you girls and i felt touched to know u girls still think of me.
I promise i'll make up a day and we go out together ok? =)
Coming back to my new school,environment and friends,im still trying my very best to get use to them. Guess it takes time and effort...hheeerrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!
i feel so miserable ryte now.............................='(
Love, Riyah
Sunday, April 13, 2008
I don't know what had got into me cause i kept thinking of Razil.
Thinking about his past instilled me with mixed feelings.
I hate the thought of the "smallest mistake" he had ever made in his life.
Somehow it brings me back during the time i cried in front of the computer,reading the words that flow slowly down the screen and I,trying to understand what was really going on.
I hate the thought when he lied to me as if i was the stupiest woman on earth.
GOSH!! how i hate him so much at that point of tym.
It hurt so bad and only god knows how much pain i endured.
The point is,can i really forget what happened?
Can i move on happily with him without thinking of his past?
I duno.
There's alot of un-answered questions that kept playing in my mind.
What if we both saw "her"?
How will he/she react?
What should i do if they decieded to talk?
Should i let them talk? or should i pull him away?
Can i forget that unfortunate moment?
Can Razil and I be normal after that? or will we quarrel?
What if he fall for "her"?
FUCK!!
i duno..BLANK!
For now,Im proud to say he changed for good.
So far,he really kept his promises.
After NS,i can see the improvement he made in this life.
He wanted to be a better person and i can see it coming.
He achieved so much during his serving in NS and im very proud of him.
Guess i really need to forgo his past to make this relationship that we hope will lead to a happy ending last eternity.
*insyallah*
Thinking about his past instilled me with mixed feelings.
I hate the thought of the "smallest mistake" he had ever made in his life.
Somehow it brings me back during the time i cried in front of the computer,reading the words that flow slowly down the screen and I,trying to understand what was really going on.
I hate the thought when he lied to me as if i was the stupiest woman on earth.
GOSH!! how i hate him so much at that point of tym.
It hurt so bad and only god knows how much pain i endured.
The point is,can i really forget what happened?
Can i move on happily with him without thinking of his past?
I duno.
There's alot of un-answered questions that kept playing in my mind.
What if we both saw "her"?
How will he/she react?
What should i do if they decieded to talk?
Should i let them talk? or should i pull him away?
Can i forget that unfortunate moment?
Can Razil and I be normal after that? or will we quarrel?
What if he fall for "her"?
FUCK!!
i duno..BLANK!
For now,Im proud to say he changed for good.
So far,he really kept his promises.
After NS,i can see the improvement he made in this life.
He wanted to be a better person and i can see it coming.
He achieved so much during his serving in NS and im very proud of him.
Guess i really need to forgo his past to make this relationship that we hope will lead to a happy ending last eternity.
*insyallah*
Love, Riyah
Friday, April 04, 2008
Its amazing how happy I am with my life.
Thx to these people in these pictures who had oldy become part of me.
STARBUCKS-THOMSON PLAZA YOU ROCK!!!!
Thx to these people in these pictures who had oldy become part of me.
STARBUCKS-THOMSON PLAZA YOU ROCK!!!!
Love, Riyah
