Wednesday, September 27, 2006
i've learn alot of things in life...
And i dun deny Life is hard...
Thinking about the ugly side make me wana cry...
sumtime i juz thought to myself...y am i olways the victim???
i lost my love one...sumone who i thought will be mine for the rest of my life..sumone who i thought will be the best husband and father of my future kids.
Mayb i expect too much...too much that i didn't realise itz juz a fairytale story i've created...
i miss him..i duno y...Mayb im still settling down...
Had misunderstanding wit mom and im sad about it..
Love mom alot but sumtime we're juz not getting on quite well..
Both got different kinds of view...
i soo hate it wen thiz happen...
"MOm..im sorie..i love u no matter what happen..."
I duno where i stand now..Mayb this is wat itz call retribution..He cared soo much for me but i dun care..sometime i felt im being veri selfish..Wanting a new relationship is wat he long wanted but i kept saeing i aint ready for it...i juz need tyme...how long?? i duno..it may take daes..months or years...im juz confused..
Today is his b'dae..Bake for him a cake wit his first name written on it..Wanted to surprised him but im dissapointed i couldn't meet him todae to give him wat i've made for him...
DISAPPOINTED
Love, Riyah
