Friday, November 24, 2006
Suzy's now gone.
Left me and Katie.
Never felt soo empty before.
I couldn't afford to cry or stare into space thinking about them(Jarir,Suzy & ShiMin)all the tyme,
i have to be strong to be dere for Katie.
I dun wana make things worst.
I've been thinking alot to make Katie feel occupied,hopefully it helps.
Things hadn't been good these days.
Conflicts and misunderstanding pilling up.
I have alot of reasons for boiling up,
i can't stand it any longer.
I did tried to show u're my friend by asking u out(gigs,slacking and whatever not),
but ur answer will olwayz be the same "him".
It keeps happening again and again,i bet if u were me u got frustrated.
But i didn't show i was really frustrated or pissed.. why??
Firstly,i bet this is my retribution for spending alot of tyme with my ex-bf when i used to be with him.
Secondly,i wan u to be happy.Happy with "him" cause i believe he can make you happy and no one else including me.
Thirdly , i want you to be love by sumone,a Guy.
so it doesn't make sense at all when u said i wan u to have a fate like mine. pfft!!
True i dun like him..lets be direct..i hate him..
I hate him for controllin you.
I hate him for making you feel that you're the most important to him and not to other people.
i hate him for asking u to scold me.scold me?? wat the hell!!
but u seems to like it that way..being controlled and followed watever thing he said.
You even asked me to lie to him to make him feel better.
now i realised.. the power of love..soo strong that u only could think inside the box.
You said i didnt show i care..how im i suppose to show wen u are olways not dere with me.
i still remembered i ever asked you out a few tymes but u said u cannot go out,fine..
but i juz dun get it u noe,if tiz for "him", u always can make it..u answer this..IS IT FAIR????
You said i pretend,if i sae im sincered being ur friend all this while you'll say its bullshit.so,watever..
LOOK! I NEED YOUR ATTENTION!!!!!!
Left me and Katie.
Never felt soo empty before.
I couldn't afford to cry or stare into space thinking about them(Jarir,Suzy & ShiMin)all the tyme,
i have to be strong to be dere for Katie.
I dun wana make things worst.
I've been thinking alot to make Katie feel occupied,hopefully it helps.
Things hadn't been good these days.
Conflicts and misunderstanding pilling up.
I have alot of reasons for boiling up,
i can't stand it any longer.
I did tried to show u're my friend by asking u out(gigs,slacking and whatever not),
but ur answer will olwayz be the same "him".
It keeps happening again and again,i bet if u were me u got frustrated.
But i didn't show i was really frustrated or pissed.. why??
Firstly,i bet this is my retribution for spending alot of tyme with my ex-bf when i used to be with him.
Secondly,i wan u to be happy.Happy with "him" cause i believe he can make you happy and no one else including me.
Thirdly , i want you to be love by sumone,a Guy.
so it doesn't make sense at all when u said i wan u to have a fate like mine. pfft!!
True i dun like him..lets be direct..i hate him..
I hate him for controllin you.
I hate him for making you feel that you're the most important to him and not to other people.
i hate him for asking u to scold me.scold me?? wat the hell!!
but u seems to like it that way..being controlled and followed watever thing he said.
You even asked me to lie to him to make him feel better.
now i realised.. the power of love..soo strong that u only could think inside the box.
You said i didnt show i care..how im i suppose to show wen u are olways not dere with me.
i still remembered i ever asked you out a few tymes but u said u cannot go out,fine..
but i juz dun get it u noe,if tiz for "him", u always can make it..u answer this..IS IT FAIR????
You said i pretend,if i sae im sincered being ur friend all this while you'll say its bullshit.so,watever..
LOOK! I NEED YOUR ATTENTION!!!!!!
Love, Riyah
