Monday, January 22, 2007
From the start,i knew this wasn't for real.This is just something anyone or everyone will go through,feeling being love by someone but not sure whether this love is for real.
i knew a friend who im beginning to feel something towards him.The feeling that i dare not give away...again.
He was always there to entertain me and he make me feel occupied. I tried to be the best that i can be,
to prove to him that im worthwhile befriending but sometym i felt not appreciated.
Im beginning to know him in depth,trying to understand him and be olways dere for him.
I knew his fear and weakness.
He got this lack of confident in himself and i olways tried to build up his confident level.*hopefully it helps..hehe*
Im beginning to feel lost when i didnt hear any news from him.i mean like the usual msges he usually gave me before he goes to school or anywhere. i love receiving his calls and msges.It makes me smile to read his cheerful msges or hearing his 'kecohness' on the phone.
But all doesn't come that easy.I have to sometym tolerate his moodswing although wat he said sometym does hurt me soo bad. My heart have to be make of steel when he is in that condition. i have to be very patience with him.
I duno whether what i tried to give him is worthwhile.
Mayb this is just another infatuation thingy.
i duno.....
Love, Riyah
